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Hi, all welcome back to my blog, its been a while since iv written a post like this so here it goes.

This year has been full of highs and lows, mostly highs thank god!Running a marathon for the Simons community was amazing I was proud to support, being apart of the Darkness into light walk was definitely a special moment for me its a cause that’s so close to my heart and I’m so proud to be apart of it.

Starting wrestling training was always a dream of mine and I’m so glad I finally did it! Its the best decision iv made, iv met so many amazing people and made great friends who have impacted my life in such a position way which I’m really grateful for.

With all the highs there have been the lows which I’m probably most grateful for, as strange as that might sound it has really shown me how strong I am and how far iv come.

I’ve definitely been put in situations that have left me questioning myself as a person but what iv learned through that is you can’t control people’s actions or reactions you can only control yourself.The challenge is not letting that get into your head and it is just that a huge challenge!!

I’m very conscious of how I treat people because I have that insight from experience, you never know what a person is going through, something small said or done can make a huge impact on a person’s life whether it be positive or negative.

Unfortunately for me, not everyone has that and its really tested me and brought back some bad memories of moments that I’ve struggled through to get here and be who I am. It’s that moment you either stand or fall.

When you spend so much time questioning yourself, your worth, your very existence sometimes, in a way attacking yourself its a pretty tall wall to climb over and gain control, I truly feel like wonder women for getting there, it’s for sure been the hardest fight for me.

So the first time you face that coming from another person it does take a lot out of you, it’s a gut punch you never saw coming like someones trying to push you back over that wall, it’s pretty scary but that’s life and it does happen.The most important thing is how you react and push back.

Iv for sure pushed back!!

For anyone, whos reading this and your still trying to climb that wall, keep going cause you will get there and it does get better you will be able to take on the world. don’t ever give up and don’t let anyone pull you done.You don’t feel it now but you are stronger than most.WE are stronger than most!!

 

 

 

 

 

Back to me, the biggest thing I’ve learned from this year is that I have the most amazing family!They have gone above and beyond from me and have been the most amazing support system.I truly feel blessed.

 

 

 

 

 

 

Thank you so much for checking out my blog I appreciate it, it’s a scary thing to be so open but if it helps even one person then it worth it to me. xxPaulaxx